Now…am I an adult??

It seems like just yesterday that we talked about boyfriend and our childish ambition….

And now we already talk about marriage…husband…pregnant…having a baby…..

I never realizing that there’s so many times that I already left behind…and also there’s so many things that had happened and makes me who I am now….

I’m turn 24^th this year….but….am I mature enough?

Am I strong enough to face another challenging life….another challenging world of life….

Career…marriage...husband…pregnant…baby…

Am I really in that round of circle now???? Do I already need to seriously think about it???

Hmm…..

….My friends….there’s some of them….

They had marriage…..already had their own baby…already had a job…already had the life that I only can imagine about it right now…

I want to experience all that….but, am I preparing enough for such a life like that???

The answer…….I doesn’t know…….

They with their happy marriage life…..

And me??? Still confused about everything…..but I can’t help….this is me….

Maybe I will be confusing forever….

Even I marriage…has a husband…..get pregnant….have a baby….I will still asking…am I an adult??? (haha…seriously I’m grown up enough now….and of course I’m an adult)

To my BFFs…Pza Junsu...BB Turtle...Amy…n Kak CT…

We’re an adult now ok…..

And soon I’m looking forward to get an invitation to wedding ceremony you all….

And…..so…….!!

‘My Everything’…..when is our turn???

When???

Where???

How???

p/s: Leaving this entry with full of questions for ‘My Everything’ to answer…..

I know that I’m LACK in everything…

There’s no human being that is PERFECT….

Because there’s only ONE that is perfect….my love my everything…ALLAH s.w.t…

I know who I am…and I know what I’m doing…

As a human being….there’s sometimes that I feel so down so small so sad….and at that time…deep inside me...I feel useless…peoples never appreciate me because I am me….I am nothing except for creating difficulties for others….I do feels all that….

But…I’m not telling you that I am regret for being myself….

No matter how hard it is and how hard it will be in the future…..I will always facing everything….because I know Allah s.w.t will always be with me….and I will facing everything because I know…no matter what happen in my life…how hard it is….and no matter how hurt I felt….it is the best for me….

It gives me the goal for my life…it gives me the strength for me to be strong…it gives the meanings for me…for my life….

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Deep inside me….I always envy peoples around me….and always want to be like them….

But I know it’s so impossible for me…because I am me and not them….

And I always said to myself…

It’s ok…. T_T

It’s ok to just be ME….

I’m in the beginning of my last semester in university…

First thing first..sooooo sorry Miyo..3 weeks terabai..

Biasala…tak boleh slalu on air…oopss silap..tak boleh slalu online actually…

But will try my best to update u from time to time..

Ok..berbalik kepada main topic..

Jan 4^th.. I’m leaving Penang for Kota Kinabalu with full of laziness..sadness..spiritness (ade keh..haha)

In my heart..can’t wait to see all my BFF..Pza Junsu..BB Turtle..Amy yang kurus..n Kak CT yang genius n slumber…miss them so much..al maklumla..last sem tak sempat sangat nak hang out sama-sama..kitorang pergi jadi TEACHER sekejap…huhu…@ praktikal..

Soalan..Sesuaikah saya menjadi seorang TEACHER?

a.       A. Sesuai

b.      B. Sesuai sikit-sikit

c.      C.  Tak sesuai

d.      D. Bagus jangan jadi

Ok..apakah jawapan anda? Tolong jangan bagitahu saya..hahaha

Alhamdulillah…

This new sem..and also last sem as a student..as a Teslian..I just need to take 4 courses..

1.       Language Awareness (Compulsory)

2.       Comparative Literature (Compulsory)

3.       Pengurusan dan Pentadbiran Kokum Sekolah

4.       Pengurusan dan Pentadbiran Pendidikan

And Alhamdulillah semuanya berjalan dengan lancar…

Hope that I can do my very best in my very final semester…Insyaallah..

To all my besties…I hope we all akan berjaya dengan cemerlang…

We will hold our DEGREE soon…I can’t wait for that..

But deep in my heart…I’m afraid to face all that..

At the time I’m holding it (my degree)….

……I am one more step to the other world……other life….

……I am losing my besties…..the 4 people that is in this 4 year time…..I learned so many things from them….in this 4 year time…they had been being someone precious that lightened up my day…..thanks so much to them….especially to my treasure besties Fizah Junsu and BB Turtle….. T_T

Cute sgt pic nie....  :)

To Fizah Junsu…

Thanks 1 000 000 n more…for all your kindness….your help….your support…n everything…..and also thanks sooooo much to always lend ur ear listened to my problem…..and give me the strength for me to face everything….I owe u for that….

To BB Turtle…

Also thanks to all your kindness especially during our practicum time…..and also thanks for your guidance after that tragedy that happen in that house…..Having u between me n Fizah Junsu..u actually coloured our day and make it more colourful..

I’m soooooo sad right now….. T_T