Will fly to Kota Kinabalu, Sabah...on November 22nd....
Stay there about 10 days....and fly back to Kedah...home sweet home on December 2nd....
The reason I'm going there....hmmm....CONVOCATION.....
Yess.....it's my convocation....at last...after a really really tired and hard time for about 4 years....it's worth waiting.....eventhough.....still blur blur about the thing name "FUTURE".........
Don't know why....but feels like screaming......scream my heart out....
not because I'm happy....walaupun sepatutnya happy.....
I bought only 1 seat.....I got only1 ticket....oh no....it's not what i want.....
MY DREAMS JUST BROKE INTO PIECES....."hancur berkecai".....
I'm dreams of....for at least someone will be by my side during that precious day......'my convocation'......but....there's nothing I can do.....aaaaarrrrrrrrggggggghhhhhhhh...............
Even dah confirm will be there and will hold the degree...the scroll....by my own hand...but....seriously.....I'm not happy.....can't imagine that moment....."where people hug their parents, get many bouquet of flowers, taking pictures with family....while me......just standing aside and watching......and just imagine if only for once....I can have what they have....oh no......just talking about this....makes me crying.... T_T....
................Ya Allah....aku redha.....namun.....berikan aku kekuatan...sekuat-kuatnya.....untuk aku mampu lalui segalanya dengan tabah......... T_T
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