All in one... Less is more....

6 years 9 months 2 weeks...yessss...we made it!!!!! Want to be just with you...forever.. :)

To start with...I will continuing be Kedahan..alhamdulillah..rezeki saya di sini rupanya....

28 April - Passed the interview (Alhamdulillah)

14 Mei  - Yess...I got Kedah...but still don't know which school..apepn (Alhamdulillah)

16 Mei - Received the letter from JPN Kedah...need to go there on 21st..ok..this time maximally nervous......because they will announce which school that we get...just berharap everything akan dipermudahkan...insyaalllah...

Ya Allah...terima kasih di atas nikmat rezeki ini....terima kasih kerana telah memberi aku kekuatan dan ketabahan sehingga ke hari ini....aku tahu segalanya adalah yang terbaik untukku... <3 <3 <3


psssst #Countdown...96 days to go...blushed blushed.. :)#

Am I Happy??

Maybe I expect more than what I deserve...well...I know who I am {my status update tru FB}...i guess it shows how i felt right now....

I have so many reasons to be happy....so....

I should be happy right now...I had past my SPP interview (which I had waited for it for ages)...I am on my way to be a 'TEACHER'....I should smile...should tell the world how happy..how glad I am...but I don't know..I just feel it for a while...I told everyone...but it seems like only me that happy with it...ok fine... I'm ok.....


I should be happy...because..less than 4 month...me n him will move to another stage of our relationship....I google'ing' for everything...dreaming something great..something perfect...but what happen now....I'm so down....he is not as excited as me...I guess I'm not that special..but...its fine...I'm ok.... T_T

I'm lying...It's so hurting me inside.... I'm happy..but I'm not.....I'm waiting for the happiness to be mine....

I'm depressed T_T

I admit...at the moment..I'm so depressed..
Have no place..have nobody to tell what I feel...have nobody that understand me...that can tell me what I need to do...I need a guide...I need someone to guide me...to tell me that I need to do this and that...I'm so tired doing everything by myself...I'm so tired thinking about the thing that I'm not sure about it...I'm tired waiting..I'm tired of thinking...I'm tired of just seeing what others do what others have what others plan to do...me????nothing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




I know that I need to do something...but I don't even know where to start...I guess I need help but who??? who can help me?????



What give me more stress....my only phone...disfunction again...ok again...fine....


I have no more reasons to feel happy right now... FINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wordless Wednesday..boleh?? hehe

 

Semoga hubungan kami sentiasa diberkati Allah.......

Semoga suata masa nanti.....kami akan disatukan dengan ikatan yang sah.... 

Dan semoga segala yang kami impikan akan menjadi kenyataan....

 

Such a messy life....

Ok fine..2nd entry for today..really feel sad...damn sad...but don't know why...


I hate when I have a bad feeling about him....really hate it...because it makes my day really in the dark...don't feels like doing anything.....but he never understand me..NEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Love is not just a word.....


Appreciate me n understand me...thats all that I need....





Its so hurt.......

Life is beautiful...INDEED...

I believed...strongly believed..theres no any single person in this entire world..don't want to have a happy life...can smile blissfully everyday every hour every second...

This is what I ask for..what I need...what I pray for...but...I accept everything that is planned by Him...as i recall back..the happiness was far far away from me...I feel lonely..useless..no..I can't describe this feeling...but I hate it.....

Just yesterday...I attended another important interview for me...The Suruhanjaya Perkhidmatan Pelajaran (SPP) interview...

Date : 14th February 2012

Venue : Jabatan Pelajaran Negeri Kedah

Time : 7.30 am

Position : Pegawai Pendidikan Siswazah 

What I can say was...it is tough...a really big competition...I just try my very best...n 'tawakal'...but hoping its a success....

wearing tudung bawal..occasionally :)

But...I don't know..just feels like...I need to take another path in my life...feels like doing another thing...

aarrrrgghhhhhhhhhhh........what happen to me.....

Happiness...please...for once...be mine....

An opportunity...

alhamdulillah...

bersyukur atas segala yg dah ditetapkan...

biar baik atau buruk...semuanya adalah yang terbaik dariNya...

Just back to the topic...

Yes..I just got an opportunity...

An interview to be an undergraduate education officer...(Pegawai pendidikan siswazah cum lecturer cum teacher) for English subject...my major obviously...

Date : January 25th 2012

Place : INSTITUT LATIHAN KECEMERLANGAN MARA (ILKM)

 Lot 201, Jalan Kerian- Kedah

 14200, Sungai Jawi

 Seberang Perai Selatan, Pualu Pinang

 No. Tel : 04 585 8555 

Time : 11.00 am

So..whats gonna be happen next....

Don't know what had been planned for me....I just pray that everything will gonna be OK fpr me...

haven't decide yet..either go for the interview or not...

just the'guru interim' thing will decide it for me..if get the result before 25th..than I choose 'guru interim'...

but if not...I just tawakal n berserah... and start to seriously think about the interview..

No matter what...thank you Allah for giving me such a big opportunity....

Wish me luck :)

Need some space...

2012 is really full of hope...really got many things to do...

A new beginning to many things... 

Starts with what juz happening now...

1. first heard about the GST interview..the name list will come out on jan 10th..really felt excited actually..started to find as many notes as possible to ensure me to be fully prepared for the interview....but..we just planning everything..only HIM that knows everything...when it comes to jan 10th..there's nothing except for keep waiting again for any news...

2. Really dissappointed..the next day..heard about the 'Guru Interim' thing... just what is guru interim??? Keep google about any info about the 'guru interim' and as result..I got to know that 'guru interim' is just like 'guru GSTT'..just the term not yet used in 2012..so that's why the new term is introduced...at least not GSTT..but in fact its just the same status....1st heard about all this I just ignore everything because what I know the 'guru interim' only will be taken in johor sabah n sarawak...so..there's no such thing for me here in Kedah to be so 'kalut-kalut'....but about 1 week after the news spread...i got to know that there's also guru interim in kedah..wow...its really makes my day..at least there's some hope for me...

3. So, my 1st step..make a call to JPN Kedah to getb the details and ensure that my name "IRMAIDA BINTI AHMAD' is in their list...and Alhamdulillah..they have my name there...another good news..But..the problems now is that I need to wait for a letter from them either JPN or KPM maybe around next week after CNY...and it depends on luck..OMG!!! I didn't really expect that...just for now...keep praying that He can give me that good luck..I will be listed in those who get the 'guru interim' position...really hope for it...

4. Ok..finish with that..in this 2012..I am alone again...need to be apart again from him...he got a new job offer..a more better job I guess...and he accept the offer..for me..I just accept everything as long as he happy with what he is doing...its just that...I need to 'sesuaikan diri' without him here...hmm...siyesly n no joke...its not as easy as I thought before...I want him back...waarghhhhhh!!!!

5. I can say it is a good new beginning for us...where we can take our time to seriously talk about our next step in our relationship...feels really awkward actually but its kind of sweet I think...hmmm...hope that everything will be easy for us...need to start saving...so JOB..please..I really need U... :)

6. Want him to know....I miss him so badly...

He said I 'dah gemuk'...haha yes I am..need to cepat-cepat DIET!!!